we made it.
The kids are not sure what to do with themselves with an empty house & not a toy in sight. We sort-a beat the moving truck here.
want the truth?
truth is.... this is exactly what we prayed soo incredibly hard for.
we wanted this. & still do 100%!! But I feel overwhelmed. I feel like a little fish is such a gigantic pond. The city is big & the people seem--well better than me. I know-silly. right?! Adults dont think that way! geesh! Its just the way I feel. I keep reminding myself that come sunday we will meet people at church & the neighbors we have met so far are just as nice as can be with children too. I am not meaning to sound ungrateful, I realize how blessed we are to live in the part of the city that we do, & so darn near the temple too--I get to pass it anytime I go out to the store. I guess what it boils down to for me is---I miss my simple town & my fabulous relationships made there. I am pretty good at being happy anywhere...so I just need to give it time. I know I will have a tear free day soon! Im sure of it!
The kids are not sure what to do with themselves with an empty house & not a toy in sight. We sort-a beat the moving truck here.
want the truth?
truth is.... this is exactly what we prayed soo incredibly hard for.
we wanted this. & still do 100%!! But I feel overwhelmed. I feel like a little fish is such a gigantic pond. The city is big & the people seem--well better than me. I know-silly. right?! Adults dont think that way! geesh! Its just the way I feel. I keep reminding myself that come sunday we will meet people at church & the neighbors we have met so far are just as nice as can be with children too. I am not meaning to sound ungrateful, I realize how blessed we are to live in the part of the city that we do, & so darn near the temple too--I get to pass it anytime I go out to the store. I guess what it boils down to for me is---I miss my simple town & my fabulous relationships made there. I am pretty good at being happy anywhere...so I just need to give it time. I know I will have a tear free day soon! Im sure of it!
6 comments:
I'm pretty sure that adults feel that way plenty... but you will have a tear free day soon, I'm sure! You've definitely made a vastly dramatic change in life, change is good. You'll be blessed. Can't wait to come down and meet you!
I LOVE Presley's bathing suit! So cute!! I love Tre's striped one too! So colorful! The picture of you with Presley is cute too.
It made my eyes water, reading how you feel in your new area. Ken and I have been debating moving back towards my parents in PA, or staying in the country up here in upstate NY. I have a really difficult time with change. I get paralyzed with fear. I'm in awe of your ability to go with the flow, and move whereever you need to. It gives me a boost of confidence that whatever we choose will be ok. I do understand how you feel, being the little fish in the big pond. Since living in the country, I feel like I've become the country bumpkin that the city people would laugh at. I'm sure they're too busy to even think that, but I make it up in my head.
I don't remember a ton from high school when I met you once or twice. But from your blog and our few chats, you seem like the sweetest, most lovable person. Like people would be fighting to have you as their best friend, because you're the kindest, and fun seeming person. I'm sure you will soon find your niche. :) Thinking of you and sending you smiles from the other side of the country! :)
I completely understand about the tear-free day. I think it took me two months to have a tear free day when we moved to North Carolina (which was also an answer to prayer and I knew I should be grateful). Good luck in Texas! I love your pictures. You have a great eye for angle and making the shot interesting. We still miss you here.
That living room space is amazing! So awesome! I'm sure you will make plenty of friends soon enough, just give it time. I am still making friends here in Corryton/Knoxville and i've been here since march. It does take time, but I'm sure it won't be hard for people to fall in love quickly with your adorable family. We will pray for you. :-)
Kim, I told Rod as soon as our furniture arrives, I want you guys to come visit. We will do a temple weekend & take turns going! major sleepover for our big broods!
Ava, you are so sweet! good at helping me feel better! I wish we had been friends in school! I was only there for 1/2 of senior year, so I didnt exactly extend myself too much. & truth be told a few girls at Pottsgrove played a pretty nasty year book prank on me. (funny how I wasnt even at the cshool for superlatives--& yet I got one. blah. yucky memories.) so I kind-a shut down the last bit of the year. I could have used a friend like you :)
Sarah, thanks! I love looking in our your kidd-os! they arent babies anymore!!!
Nicola, I feel bad complaining at all now. I know it was hard for you to leave cumberland gap too! YOu had created such a supportive family there! I am glad to hear you are making friends! I miss all your faces!!
Oh gosh! Jenni, I am so sorry that you had such a rotten senior year. I can't say it was my best year either! We DID have some nasty mean girls there. I spent my senior year staying by friends who had my back because one girl was threatening to beat me up! She stole pictures out of the yearbook room and was making fun of these 2 boys who were volunteer firefighters. And I "tattle taled" on her, because I thought it was rude. Ah...memories... hahaha. Isn't it crazy how mean teenagers can be?! I always wonder what kind of grown ups they turn out to be...
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