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{Bright & early}

Friday, August 15, 2014


This morning the children had the right idea & headed outside bright & early before the heat hit. We saw the moms in their camping chairs & the girls playing when we returned home from our morning appointments. The girls played with babies in Andrea & Jacob's front yard & the boys raced around on bikes. The neighborhood kids ended up spending almost all day together. Natalie even fed Maddox lunch. Tre jumped on a trampoline with a sprinkler in Liz & Nick's yard. We are soaking in the last few days of summer vacation. 











{King of Great Maddox}

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Let me start with this little nugget of ours. I feel like I need to warn New Mexico! For a while now Maddsy has been rather irritated with the fact that Britton has a nation (Great Britain) & his own flag. At dinner Maddox announced that he is going to "conquer" New Mexico with "force" & claim it as "Great Maddox"  His flag is going to be rainbow colored he says. I asked him today after Speech if he would be king or President. King of course. I told him he needed to come up with some ideas on how to keep his people happy & healthy. His first declaration as King of "Great Maddox"...all kids can drive cars. Heaven help us I love this back-talking blue eyed boy.
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Yesterday we ran into neighbors at the pool. The children played so well together. M & M & A were so precious with Maddox. Now that Maddox & Britt are swimming without vests the girls kept an extra watchful eye on our 5 year old. Miss. A was particularly protective & it really warmed my heart. They built forts & had "meetings" at their round table. Im pretty sure my children are all secretly angry at me today because I sort-a forgot to lather them up with sun screen. They are all rocking a pretty bad case of sunburn today. They are so patient with their momma. 





















{nook}

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Last night I rocked with Cooper in the darkest corner of his room while he fought a fever & an upset stomach. His head fell into that place below my left collar bone & next to my shoulder. He melted into me perfectly. Like he was always supposed to fit in that nook of my body. I miss having a life inside. Last night was the closest I have been to that since Cooper's birth day.













{Pioneer Days}

Monday, July 28, 2014


Pioneer day here is always such a big deal. The kids love the spinning apple ride & the pony rides, water slides, & bouncy houses.  the previous bishop owned a great harvest across from the Temple. Every pioneer day french toast is made out the cinnamon bread from there. Complete with hot syrup & sides. I had recently read for the 3rd time a book that touched on the experiences that pioneer woman endured with faith. Loosing babies to the elements, loosing husbands, pulling carts filled with supplies alone, being sick themselves but still caring more for everyone around them, giving their meal portions to their children & starving. We celebrate the sacrifices these pioneers made & the legacy of faith they left. This year the children had lots of questions about the pioneers, where in years past they had lots of questions about the cotton candy machine. Its fun to watch them learn of  church history. After breakfast & making the rounds to the attractions with friends Rod & I decided to surprise the 5 with a stop at a boiling alley. Its so hot here, if you aren't in a pool you are inside. Bowling went way better than expected. Honestly I thought Presley would freak out over the noise (she hates loud noises. Ironic. I know.) & I assumed Cooper would not be pleased sitting in his stroller for 1 hour, but Cooper was our little mascot & cheered us all on. we really enjoyed the time together. It seems so rare lately. If you ask the kids what their favorite part of the day was they would tell you it was when i slipped & fell while trying to retrieve a stuck bowling ball just over the blue line. I have the bruise to prove it. Just gotta laugh at those things! 






















{best shot}

Monday, July 21, 2014

I just heard a huge thump upstairs. I am listening. My desk chair is situated just below Maddox's bed.  He isn't fussing, I can hear his feet & bed frame creaking. I imagine he is in twilight, that magic place where wake meets sleep as he slides back between the sheets to return to his dreamy slumber. I think what it would be like to dream worry free like a child again. I worry about these 5 little people that have been entrusted in my care, in my arms, in my heart. I feel a tremendous amount of guilt when they go to bed with dirty feet from outside play. ridiculous things like that can seem so much bigger after dark when I contemplate their paths in life. Where will those feet take them? I know where I would like them to go. & that leads to endless lists of things I should do better tomorrow. I should read an extra book, sing an extra song, give an extra kiss, not forget to brush their teeth after pancakes or wash their feet at bedtime. I am a mom in the making. 10 years & I still wake every morning wondering how I am going to make the day work, but not just work, be warm & wonderful, & every night I find myself asking how it all worked out for another day. They are so patient with me. So forgiving of my mistakes. I can feel like the worst of the bad mothers & Britt will crawl up beside me snuggle into me & with that nasally voice of his say "Mommy your the best Mom ever. I'm so glad you are mine. & you cook good food too." that nasally voice that talks in circles just grabs at my heart. I'm not perfect, but I'm giving it my best shot. 






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