The new kid on the block

The new kid on the block was blessed today.
I have dressed two other baby boys in the same tiny white outfit. I have slipped little white socks on 20 toes before. I have wrapped two other little guys in a white blanket. I have bowed my head in prayer 2 other times. I have heard my sweet husbands words bless two of my sons. But for some reason, Today was different.Today I could truly feel the presence of priesthood authority as the righteous men of our ward stood in a circle around our Maddox, each lightly touching him. I wondered as I sat & the ward bowed their heads if they were bouncing him to keep him from crying. Were his eyes open or closed? If I knew my son I knew they were open. Maddox is awake more then he is asleep, he wants to see everything, never wants to miss a moment.This special occasion was no different. The blessings spoken to Maddox were beautiful.
After the blessing was ended & the men began to go their ways to their seats, I watched as Rod held up our newest son for the congregation to see. I heard the coos & the awes, but I was preoccupied with the thickness of the spirit & the sudden weight of the responsibility I have been blessed with. 1.2.3. Baby boys. 1.2.3. young men. 1.2.3. priesthood holders. 1.2.3.missionaries. 1.2.3. husbands. 1.2.3.daddys. & IM OUT NUMBERED! How is 1 mommy supposed to prepare a tiny army of valiant & righteous men? What if I dont teach the right way or encourage the things I should while discouraging the things i need to? What if I dont tell them I love them enough? What if I am too hard on them? What if I give them too much wiggle room? (What if I never have a girl?) What if one tries to do it on his own, how bad would my heart hurt? All these what ifs were sloshing around in my mind. Then I looked at the new baby Rod had returned to my arms then to our big boy Tre & our rambunctious Britty & felt peace. I feel that heavenly father knows me & thus knows that my efforts as a mommy to these boys will be enough. I know that 1.2.3. baby boys will someday recognize the warmth that swells in their hearts when we speak of our savior & they will be converted just as their daddy & just as their mommy were converted...& when that day comes I will know my job (no matter how tricky) was fulfilled. That Tre, Britton & Maddox chose their Father in Heaven & all the glory that goes along with it!