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Monday, November 02, 2009

This Monday is not much different from last Monday

or the one before that

or before that.

So whats my deal?!

Maybe it was the long weekend
or all the work he did for us.
or all the laughs he provoked.
or the moments I found him snuggling sick Britt.
or his willingness to watch a romantic comedy with me.

But I am missing Rod more then usual today.

Im going through a severe case of Husband withdrawal.

Ive tried chocolate.

Ive tried busying myself.
(Im making blinds for the boys room today.
& homemade bread. because I have a craving for it.)

Ive even tried to just not think of him.

which I failed at horribly.

I miss my husband.
He is on call this weekend.
Its a double week for us.

I wonder if he has any Idea how different the house feels when he is gone.
Or how the boys are more mellow & quiet.
I wonder if he knows how even my heating pad cant warm my cold feet like he does at night.
I wonder if he knows how much I miss the smell of his soap in our bathroom.
Or how I don't make big meals because hes not home.
I wonder if he has any idea how much We miss him.

I miss you Rod.
You are Wonderful.

Now go help deliver those sweet babies!



6 comments:

Kalen said...

OMG... TEARS!!! I can only imagine how hard this is for you. I can't imagine what the house will be like without Brad when he goes off to the academy... and you have three little ones!!! I'm going to need your help desperately when that time comes!! You'll be a pro at this by then! I hope you the weeks fly by so you don't have to miss him anymore!!!


On another note, I have to admit, when you had Sara Bareilles on your page the other day, I was thinking in my head, "not sure what it is that she sees in her music." But, I have to say, I had only heard "Love Song" and it must be the worst song they could have put on the airwaves. I have been listening to Pandora Radio & realized that Gravity & ESPECIALLY "Many the Miles" are amazing songs. It's a shame they haven't hit the radio and that she didn't make it big with one of them, because "Love Song" just doesn't do her justice!!! Anyway, just thought I'd let you know. :-)

Jenni said...

Kalen, I just love you. It would be a lot easier if my fav. sister in law lived near by:) As far as Sara goes..I know! I hate love song. Sooooo annoying. Gravity is my go to song when I need a soundtrack to sniffle to. haha. Your blog is marvelous PS! Loving it! Your fairly new to it...& all ready your blog looks pro! you'll be teaching me all kinds of tricks!

Hill Family said...

Poor Jenni! It's always worse after you have had them home again. I think it's the reminder of how much easier it is when they are around. And when the whole time they are home is filled to overflowing with lots of fun stuff it's like the day after Christmas only without all the sales__depressing!!! After a few days of them being gone you think. Okay that's right I CAN do this. I do this all of the time. But right now you are thinking (and rightly so) I don't want to do this! You will be in my thoughts this week. Call if you need to talk.
In answer to your question I am feeling okay. My hips aren't cooperating too well though. Not sure why but last night I couldn't walk. It was pretty painful. Brandon did some manipulations which helped although I'm still limping today. Thankfully he gave me a blessing this morning which made all of the difference. Perhaps you could make a day trip over to get a blessing from Rod. It might boost your spirits.

allegra said...

oh, i'm soo emotional when pregnant, that i couldn't help but cry a tear for you. hang in there, you're strong and can do it! imagine if you didn't have your 3 munckins to keep you entertained, too... how lonesome THAT would be. just trying to cheer you up, but it's probably not working.

xo

Heather said...

Oh Jen- my heart hurts for you. I too will be going through being a part from Ryan in 2 weeks as he will be in Harrogate doing his Orthopedic Surgery rotation. Hang in there honey.... residency is just around the corner. I CAN'T WAIT! In the meantime, please pick of the phone, send me an email..whatever you need...I'm hear for you sweetie! No go eat some chocolate, take a hot bath, watch your favorite money, paint your toenails and do everything that makes you happy.

Amy Houseman said...

ok i have tears in my eyes now. you are a wonderful amazing wife and mommy! it must be soo hard to be without him! thank God it won't always be this way.
on another note, i found a prayer book that i made a while back and in it was a picture of you, des, leah, and i at the ca cafe in kop mall...and i wrote little post it notes for each person i was praying for and i wrote on yours...your upcoming marriage :) aww!!! the memories! oh and we were definitely rocking our long curly hair in the picture!! hehe!!! fun fun!

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