{see}

Its late.

Rod is working a night shift dealing with gun shot wounds and other late night mishaps.

5 little ones are asleep. some snoring, some quiet.

The house is still.

Cooper had his neurology consult today. 

Originally the referal was for his apnea.

But as the Drs looked him over it became about a lot more.

His social/interactive mile stones are not being met.

the reason...

The Drs think he may have vision impairments.

I was light hearted & really did not take the appointment too seriously until 

the Dr. pulled out a bag of toys.

She quickly moved toys just a smidge from his eye lashes 

first side to side and then away and towards.

faster & faster

to attempt a response.

not a blink.

not a moment of focus on the bright red toy.

nothing.

nothing.

nothing.

I held my breath.

My heart sank into my belly.

We left with 3 more referrals

which means 3 more appointments.

I am anxious to hear that all is well, as I am prayerfully hoping they are. 

Until his appointment to evaluate his sight I am going to 

keep holding his hand because he loves that and its a sure way to calm him.

Im going to keep kissing his neck because it makes him squirm.

& I am going to keep whispering in his ear that I am here. 

Motherhood is such a roller coaster.

{way past due}

I feel like my life is going by. slipping by. I don't pull out my camera as often as I should. I cant find a split second to document that fact that Britt still hates Kinder, That Tre has a fort with some neighborhood guys, or that Presley lives only on chocolate milk, Id like to type down that Cooper is still struggling to be happy or that Maddox says "hey check it out!" about 1 billion times a day. 

BUt for now all I can muster up is a phone dump that is way past due.

included here is: 

cooper in the hospital for his scare.

some holiday time pictures

Rod with a fake mustache from work

Ice cream truck in december

flip flops in january

kids playing

Britt lost a tooth--naturally. 

luca the dog's visit

baptism jump suits ready to go

kids in the kitchen

baby.

{kids being kids}

Tonight Tre had his first ever Blue & Gold Banquette. 

& I missed it.

It started 3o minutes past bedtime for the littler kids.

& that is a recipe for disaster!

So before Tre hitched a ride from some great friends I thought

Id snap a few pictures of him in uniform.

(who doesn't love a man in uniform?!)

The other children must have thought this was the perfect evening for a family shoot

because they were everywhere. 

& the best part they were all in jammies 

that they had picked out. 

some shirts too big, 

some shorts too small, 

nothing matching. 

But I kind-a like pictures where the kids look like kids. 

I bet those will be the pictures we laugh at & enjoy the most when they are full grown. 

Rod & T should be home any minute with fun stories to tell 

& so I say goodnight.